I would love to tell you that I have not written in months or longer because I am out there living life, making memories and changing my place in the universe. And I wouldn't
be lying. I have met an amazing man who motivates me to be the best version of myself every day. Eight months later and I still am excited to talk to him and even more stoked to see him in person. But the bigger part of what is going on is a renewal of my reading and learning brain cells. My biggest complaint about epilepsy medications is the loss of higher level functioning that has had me struggling for the last 5 years. But six months ago, I worked with my doc to take away the Topamax, aka dopamax. I really expected to instantly have my insatiable desire to learn and read back. The process of regaining the brain I once knew was slow. But now, I am sucking in the marrow of knowledge.
I am learning new job skills in particular. I am exploring the fields of Human Resources, Marketing Research, Retail Technology, Tarot and Project Management. I truly get pleasure from learning and reading.
I am trying to learn how to take things I am passionate about into all parts of my life. But I am also aware that growth is necessary to keep from stagnating. Once that hazardous materials are dumped in your lake it is hard to clarify the waters.
Starting over is scary but not as scary as drowning in the lake.
Sorry for the ramble.
